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Claustrophobia

"I have had to return from Pune due to a freak accident. The plaster (on my ankle) has created many complications. I have had claustrophobia for a long time and have managed it by avoiding certain situations. But the restrictiveness of the plaster has evoked claustrophobia related panic attacks. In a way, I am learning more about claustrophobia but every day a new element comes up and fucks my mind. I have been able to ward off an attack for the last couple of days but it has been extremely stressful." - 16 Jan 2011, SMS to a dear friend.

Not everybody in the world has claustrophobia: maybe just a very tiny fraction of people. I haven't looked up the statistics but no one I met has ever admitted to having such a problem. I am assuming they don't.

Admission of a phobia changes the way people look at you and perceive your actions. I know people can use this admission against me and affect my chances of being heard. So be it. It is more important for me to share this world that I got a peek into. It won't be stylish or dramatic with no close up or fancy angles or background music.
(To be continued...)

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